August 22, 2018
It seems as if not that long ago I was writing to you about my blogging break and all that I had learned. However, here we are again after over a month of silence here on Timeless Taste. To say that I have a really good excuse for being gone would be a lie (sort of). In fact, I do have a good excuse, probably just not a responsible one, I should say.
To be completely honest, I have spent the last month of my life feeling freer than I have in years. I have been relearning to live on purpose, with ease and without as nearly the amount of stress, by not even thinking about blogging. Not to mention, I have focused on my day to day tasks and my house is actually clean. #PraiseTheLord
I have spent time riding my new bike, reading good books, relearning my love for cooking, barely ever opening my laptop and intentionally reconnecting with my little family at home. Slowly, I have realized how much I stress about this site for no particular reason. I have taken the fun out of it and made it more of a chore than a hobby. There have been multiple occasions when I would sit down to write a post only to feel my heart nagging at me to close my laptop. I obeyed. My laptop would close and I would be on my way to something else. Something pure and intentional. Life.
You’re probably guessing that this post is going to end with me saying that I won’t be blogging anymore. While I won’t deny that thought crossing my mind, several times, that isn’t the case. I won’t be making any promises about a posting schedule, which I know makes it hard to follow. But, from time to time I will still be posting here. I mean, I did just have this beautiful site built, so why not?!
What I have learned is that I still don’t quite know what makes me truly happy or what I really feel like I need to share. I do feel the need to share something, obviously, or I would have given up a long time ago! But, right now I feel like I need to step back from my laptop more. Maybe more posts will come than I think. Maybe not. What I do know is that my husband and our pup need me. They need my full attention to be in our home. My other job needs me to not be half-assing everything all the time because of this creative endeavor. I need to believe in myself again and stop comparing myself to other incredibly talented women. I’m not saying that I’m not talented because there are so many things that I am passionate about. I just have to stop turning every simple happy moment into a stressful moment by trying to get the perfect Instagram picture, blog post or vlog. I need to learn balance again and not that master it all perfect “busy balance”. I’m talking about the kind of balance that shifts your time to what is most important and allows you to give your heart to healthy things.
I truly believe that I have spent so much time “researching” content, and comparing my life, that I forgot that you create new content by living and trying and experiencing new things. For me personally, I feel most inspired when I am in my kitchen with a glass of cabernet, “French Cooking Music” playing on Pandora and I’m trying out a new recipe or cooking an old favorite. Not only have I made myself miserable and inseparable from my laptop, but I have forgotten how to truly live and enjoy the little things that make me happy and feel inspired.
By not truly living and experiencing, I do you, the Timeless Taste reader, a disservice and stand for something completely opposite of the purpose for Timeless Taste. My hope is that with time, separation and patience, I will learn the balance. How to sit down occasionally to write and share my life with you. But, how to also continue to learn and experience new things.
So maybe I will post once a month, once a week or who really even knows. There are several holidays coming up that I know will have me inspired. The photos and words that you will see might not be perfect but they will be real and from the heart. I promise to do my best to bring you valuable and relatable content that is in my heart.
It’s time that I stop watching from the sidelines and actually live.
Thank you so much for reading this post. If you have ever felt this way, please do share how you got back involved with living your life. I know that sounds a bit strange but how did you step back from the comparison and live wholeheartedly without fear or frustration? I would love to know!
Photography by Tiffany Sigmon
Relearning to Live