March 5, 2019
Honestly, the past month has pretty much been a blur. It has been the longest, but also the shortest month of my life. I know that doesn’t make any sense what so ever, but to be honest nothing about this situation seems to make sense sometimes and that’s ok. I just want you to know that I know I have been a little quiet on all of my platforms and promise there is an adequate excuse for that. Thank you so much for saying a prayer for us. I promise you they have been felt more than I can tell you.
I shared this email with my newsletter subscribers and forgot to take off the auto post to Facebook, so basically, everyone in our close and distant circle has read this content. However, I had always planned to share this on my blog as this is obviously a home base for all of my content. This is where I share our personal life as well as my blog content, so naturally, I want to document everything here. If you read them the email, you will already be familiar with this story, but I want to use this as a reference point for future content and make sure that this lives on long after that email.
To be honest with you, I am a little uncomfortable sharing this, just because it is Jay’s story, not mine. It has definitely changed our lives and I want to share what a reality check this was for me with you. In order to do that, I have to first share with you what actually happened before I can share my personal thoughts on something like this.
I promise I will share more on this in the future. I just wanted to let you know why I have been absent so I can talk more about what is going on in our daily lives on my Instagram stories!
So… here it goes.
The News No One Plans For
There are so many things in your life that you can consider or maybe even wonder how you would handle them if they ever happened. Over the years, I naturally thought about many things. Your mind wanders or at least mine does, and somehow you find yourself worrying about things that haven’t even (and probably never will) actually happen.
On the other hand, there are things that you never even consider, I mean really never consider, and then BOOM you are blindsided. That’s what happened to us almost two weeks ago.
Hearing your husband say the words, “I have cancer.” is something I never, in my worse possible thoughts, could have ever put together.
Why? How? What now?
Those are just a few of the initial thoughts that came to my head, that was of course after “Oh my gosh, I think I might be sick.” Not to mention, I literally saw stars for a second. Was it overwhelm? God? I don’t know what it was. All that I do know is that even though we knew this would possibly be the outcome, nothing we could have done would have prepared us for how we would feel when receiving that news. Honestly, I think that it’s safe to make that a general statement for anyone receiving that news.
Obviously, it wasn’t just a “Suprise! You have cancer.” kind of thing. Jay had a spot that had been previously diagnosed as a “cyst” back in September. Over time, that had spot had changed and grown. After visiting the doctor prior to going to Miami, he said that things had definitely changed and ordered an ultrasound.
A week and a half later, Wednesday, February 6, Jay had his ultrasound. Later that day, the doctor called saying that it was most likely testicular cancer and he was able to see his urologist the next day. On Thursday, his urologist also confirmed that there was a 95% chance it was testicular cancer and scheduled for surgery the following day to remove it and send it out for a biopsy. By Friday afternoon, Jay was recovering from surgery and we were both resting from the most shocking week of our life.
The following week (last week) we spent Monday through Wednesday waiting for the doctor to call. We prayed, played a million card games, read books, watched movies, and worked a little. It was hard to focus on anything but the doctor calling with the biopsy results. They called around 5:40 pm on Wednesday, February 13th to share that Jay had Stage 1 Testicular Cancer, a pure seminoma.
Although this wasn’t great news, it was good in the sense that it wasn’t a non-seminoma. We were back to waiting and celebrating our (I hate to call it a win, but in a way it was) somewhat good news, until Monday when he would have a scan to see if the cancer had spread.
Monday morning came and we went in for the scan. Literally, as I was writing you this email, Jay received the results of the scan sharing that there is NO EVIDENCE OF CANCER in this abdomen, pelvis, or throat.
We have a surgery followup appointment on Thursday and we are thinking they will discuss what we need to do then. The doctor informed us last week that he would most likely have the option to have radiation or just do scans, every few months, to check in. After discussing things, I think he will probably choose to have radiation straight away, just to make sure that this cancer is gone and not coming back.
This is kind of like a short version of the story including all of the important details. This has truly been life changing for us both, even though it has been so quick, which I am incredibly grateful for. Prayer and our faith have kept us going and I can say with more confidence than ever that our God is so good. Even in the darkest moments, of the past couple of weeks, I have felt his strength lifting us up.
I promise I will share more and keep you updated on this process as it continues to unfold. We didn’t want to share things too early when we still didn’t really know what was going on. I’m so thankful for our family and friends and amazing doctors who have made us a priority during this time. I know we will continue to discuss how this is affecting our lives on my various platforms here.
We are so thankful for your prayers and support during this time! I’m excited to be able to start thinking about my blog again and in a different light! 🙂
Photography by Tiffany Sigmon
Our Lives Have Been Changed Forever