November 8, 2019
It doesn’t seem possible that I’m already writing my first trimester recap. For one, I honestly thought I would never live to see the day that the first trimester was over (more on that later) and also because the time is going by so quickly in some ways.
Being a mother has always been a dream of mine for many reasons. Obviously, little girls are given baby dolls and usually want to mother from a young age. Then, you meet the man of your dreams and couldn’t imagine anything better than creating a special little human that is made from both of you! I always dreamt of the day that Jay and I would be able to have children but for some reasons always doubted my ability to carry a child. There are so many fears associated with pregnancy, especially during the first trimester.
Thankfully, we have made it to the second trimester and I’m already feeling much more human than I ever imagined possible. All of those old wives tales didn’t work out for me as well as I thought they would! This little boy has given me acne and the most difficult to deal with nausea I have ever experienced! Everyone thought he was a little girl because I have felt really bad. Don’t get me wrong, I can’t complain because some ladies get it SO bad. But, for me, I guess I just never knew you could feel the way morning sickness has made me feel!
I just wanted to share a really honest recap of my first trimester, because some days I felt really bad not just physically but mentally. Feeling sick, day after day, can in my opinion really do a number on your mental and emotional health. Despite carrying this little miracle of ours, I got really down and behind on all my duties in life. If you have a preference of how you would like these trimester recaps laid out or if I left out something you are curious about, just let me know!
First Trimester Recap
How did you find out you were pregnant?
Jay and I always knew we wanted a family and after a crazy ride at the beginning of this year, we decided that the second part of the year we would relax a bit and not put too much pressure on starting a family. We weren’t timing anything, instead we just made the choice to accept what would happen and I found out I was pregnant on August 5, 2019!
I was experiencing really sore breasts and I knew there could be a possibility that I was pregnant. I took a few test all of which were negative, which was obvious that I had taken them too early. After still experiencing this pain and having a crazy dream about that area, I decided to go purchase another test. I had just gotten home from grocery shopping and had to pee, so naturally I took the test. I wasn’t thinking it would be positive because I had take several negative ones and I hadn’t even put away my groceries yet! Immediately two dark lines appeared and I was just shaking. I was expecting it to be negative so it was a real shock!!
How did you tell Jay?
Jay got home a few minutes after I took the test. I always dreamed of having a cute outfit or something but I can’t believe he couldn’t see it on my face. I snuck the test into the top drawer of this nightstand. When he came in the bedroom I was making the bed. I know Jay is such a creature of habit, so I put the TV remote on his side of the bed, because I knew he would offer to help and would want to put the remote in his nightstand. I asked him if he could move the remote and sure enough he opened his drawer and was like “OMG! You’re Pregnant?!” He is so sweet. He just came straight to me and kissed me!
How are you feeling?
This part is going to be TMI, but honestly, I feel like everything is TMI during pregnancy! Truthfully, I have not felt great. For me, the nausea set in at about 5.5 to 6 weeks and continued to get worse. I felt like weeks 9 through 12 were the worse for me. I didn’t experience any vomiting until about 8 weeks and it started with just heaving. It slowly progressed into a little more but thankfully being physically sick only happened to me during the morning hours. I am now 17 weeks a experienced vomiting in week 16!
I spent a lot of time feeling tired and quite emotionally drained. I know, I know, this is one of the happiest times of my life but growing a life is not easy and can have various challenges! My first sign that I could be pregnant was sore breasts, like really sore! I also spent an entire day in bed so tired and just not able to get up. As the weeks passed, I was able to sneak in a few naps here and there. But, honestly, I’m not the best napper!
Any Cravings or Aversions?
Nothing really other than carbs and anything that didn’t have a lot of flavor. I did (and still do) eat a lot of Mexican food! I also wen through a phase of drinking a lot of milk and eating McGriddles! LOL. Basically, my diet hasn’t been very healthy!
As far as aversions, in the beginning basically any kind of food was a turn off! I struggle quite a bit. Pizza was a no go or really any red sauce for a few weeks. Thankfully, that went away. I’m not really wanting vegetables, which isn’t a good thing. Mostly, I just don’t want a big piece of meat which is making the food pretty unhealthy!
Best Part of the First Trimester
Hearing the baby’s heartbeat and having our first ultrasound at 8 weeks! It was so incredible to see the baby that had grown in just 8 weeks. I think I was still in such shock that I had a human growing in me, that the emotions didn’t happen until 12 weeks when he heard the heartbeat again. It was such a relief to have made it to 12 weeks and still have a heartbeat. I definitely teared up at that visit!
Worst Part of the First Trimester
NAUSEA. Honestly, this hit me like a train. I had no idea I would feel so sick, as you know by now! Also, I’m going to be honest with you here. I was extremely afraid that we would lose the baby.
Which Books Are You Reading?
I bought several books in the beginning because I thought I would be just dying to read them. But, I haven’t really been driven to read too many. My favorite book so far, which I kind of expected, is Bringing Up Bébé. There are a lot of parenting techniques that Jay and I really agree with in this book. I’m about half way finished and so far I have really enjoyed this book. I also bought this book from the Mayo Clinic which has been helpful. However, most everything in here you can easily read online.
Do You Have a Name Already?
The short answer is no, not yet. However, we do have a few narrowed down and one that we kind of already call him. So, maybe we have decided, it’s just not official? I’m not 100% sure! (haha)
One Thing You Love About Pregnancy So Far and One Think You Dislike?
So far, I love how my mood and outlook has improved. I mean, don’t get me wrong, some days are pretty rough. But, I have been surprised at how confident and positive I feel toward myself. It’s like I have a new love and appreciation for myself and my body. I definitely didn’t expect to feel this way at all, but I have never felt more like myself.
On the contrary, feeling so sick has also made me miserable. I had no clue that I would feel so terrible and that, that would get me so down. I just want to not feel sick when I wake up or piratically throughout the day.
This post has become much longer than I had expected it to be, so I hope you were able to make it this far! We are so excited to meet Baby P in the Spring and are so grateful for the love we have received!
First Trimester Recap